back to the real world!
back to the same old grind... classes, pracs etc etc..... but in a way its comforting to be somewhere... doing something... i can imagine what my state would have been like had i not been doing my msc and solely preparing for MBA entrances. Though i did think of it sometime back, im happy i didnt think much!
though it is scary... piles and piles of notes... the entire msc part 1 portion needs to be photocopied, and its not going to be light on my pocket (would def make my pocket lighter though!!! ;o) sidey one im sorry... guess im getting back to being myself!) i dont even know what books im supposed to be referring to. the other day i reached college 31/2 hrs early, thinking i could spend some quality time in the library when i realized i didnt know what books to refer to. so i randomly selected a book on probability (thts sidier than the prev one!! ;oD) and after going through the whole process of registering the book realized it was a book on statistics for engineering. feeling too lazy to return it coz that was another pain, i went through it for about 1 1/2 hrs... learnt enough about engg to thank my stars i didnt opt for it. and for the record that same day inspite of being so early, all determined to maintain a perfect attendance record this term, i had to miss the first lec coz my smart friends thought the SNAP form filling process wouldnt take more than an hr....
signing off now.. gotta go dress up 6 yr olds for a birdie dance!!
Its over
I can say that not just about the exam... might also apply to my IIM hopes....
For those who care
The paper was simple... normal CAT style.. except for the marking... which in my opinion is not that big a deal... in that way paper was weird but its not an excuse
FOR THE GAZILLION MISTAKES I MADE IN QUANT... im too ashamed to put up my score.... and so may of them were the stupidest imaginble mistakes.... cant believe i made such stupid mistakes
Verbal was a dream DI went off unexpectedly well inspite of being my weakest point but Quant murdered my IIM hopes in cold blood.... my totals not bad though but it doesnt make a difference... think its bye bye CAT for now except for maybe SPJain but im not keen on that either... have bought the form so will give it a shot but.....
My only hope... IMS answer sheet is full of mistakes!! think i should have got about 3-4 more answers correct..that might make things somewhat better ;o) seriously 4 more correct and maybe i have a faint chance
anyway back to other stuff now... MSc for one...!!!! gotta start with it tomorrow for any hope of passing and then theres XLRI, FMS etc. etc...... something good should come out of all this! i seriously believe, if its meant to happen it will... somewhere, sometime!!
The day has dawned
Not really... still a few more hours to go and honestly i dont see myself getting so psyched out about it.... (im talking about CAT) im just looking forward to well... geting this over with... its not like i didnt like studying for CAT and neither have i studied allllll that much to be bored... just that theres something at the back of your mind for so long... its a relief to get it over with... but all the same i would be happy if things work out well (who wouldnt)!!!
heres to CAT!
insomnia attack!!!!
its 4:14 am and im blogging.... just another demonstration of a pre exam insomnia attack... not that im studying all that much.... just lazing around all day and then staying up all night (doing nothing) hoping that it compensates for my wasted day... its this whole cycle.... now once i do sleep i wont get up till late morning and automatically i lose out on an entire chunk of the day... and i will feel stupid about that and so sit up again all night....!! think im really losing it (whatever little i had of it!! ;o)
but seriously, why do i take on so much pressure.. always.... agreed i work best under pressure.... but then i havent quite given myself a chance under relaxed circumstances.... so i cant even say that really.... hmmmm... thats something i never thought of... though i dont think i can suddenly get all relaxed in the next 3 days... but i guess i must try... (have been saying this to atleast 5 people daily...).. guess i dont really have that much faith and confidence
oh guess what happened... stupid me.. i had this practice test i had solved before and forgotten about it and i sat with it again today... and all through the paper i kept thinking these IMS people are such nuts they even repeat the comprehension passages!! but on the bright side... i did well...
anyway gotta atleast pretend to sleep... dads alarm just went off and if he sees me up so late........ basically his idea of an all nighter is sleeping at 2 am max...
insomnia attack!!!!
its 4:14 am and im blogging.... just another demonstration of a pre exam insomnia attack... not that im studying all that much.... just lazing around all day and then staying up all night (doing nothing) hoping that it compensates for my wasted day... its this whole cycle.... now once i do sleep i wont get up till late morning and automatically i lose out on an entire chunk of the day... and i will feel stupid about that and so sit up again all night....!! think im really losing it (whatever little i had of it!! ;o)
but seriously, why do i take on so much pressure.. always.... agreed i work best under pressure.... but then i havent quite given myself a chance under relaxed circumstances.... so i cant even say that really.... hmmmm... thats something i never thought of... though i dont think i can suddenly get all relaxed in the next 3 days... but i guess i must try... (have been saying this to atleast 5 people daily...).. guess i dont really have that much faith and confidence
oh guess what happened... stupid me.. i had this practice test i had solved before and forgotten about it and i sat with it again today... and all through the paper i kept thinking these IMS people are such nuts they even repeat the comprehension passages!! but on the bright side... i did well...
anyway gotta atleast pretend to sleep... dads alarm just went off and if he sees me up so late........ basically his idea of an all nighter is sleeping at 2 am max...
more CAT
back after a long break.. actually... ive not been posting coz i have nothing interesting to say really...!! poor me!!
CAT is killing... wish it just gets over with..... actually no... ive been wasting a lot of time the past few days.. instead of the last minute super studying mode.. ive gotten totally out of it... for those who care i managed a miserably terrible, historically low score of 71 in sim7... great morale booster!! for those who have any suggestions on how i can scare myself into studying again pls mail me asap..
10 more days to go.... honestly... i dont really care... i dont even know how i got myself into this MBA/CAT frenzy... never really thought id ever give CAT... but i know if i stop to think how stupid ive been ill lose the little motivation i have to study for it.. actually i dont really think im that against doing an MBA.... these 'musings' must just be the standard pre-exam 'whats the point of the whole thing anyway' philosophy.. kinda like laying the ground for a possible failure (i wasnt that interested in it really...!!!)
but theres one thing.. i did go about this whole thing quite foolishly. i look around at home and all i can find are exam forms and (prospectuses/prospectii.... no wonder my english scores are so low!) and honestly i paid good money to apply to places im really not that keen on going to... i guess in the aftermath of the ISI Calcutta disaster (for those who are unaware it was the one place the one course i wanted to do and i messed the interview big time) and subsequent disorientation i just went into this frenzied form buying mode! but i guess its all for some purpose.. maybe one of them will work out and itll be just the thing for me
gotta get back to my books now... 10 days to go..................
