new and improved... still me
yup.. i managed to put in all the add ons that i formerly thought only techies could install!! (yo! this is the 'tech savvy' me).. that was my learning for the day :o)
figured i have about 21/2 months to go before i start off on the mba... gotta make the most of it. have spent 3hrs 7minutes and 9seconds looking for something i could do. thankfully i have managed to form a rough list
-volunteer at akankshas summer camp
-take up dance lessons
-vacation somewhere (other than goa, which is almost a pucca plan).. current options range from himachal pradesh to lakshwadeep (no harm in dreaming big! :o)
-art classes
-religious/meditation camp (need this if i want to stay alive next yr!)
actually, come to think of it, is a b-school that stressful? i mean all the people i know who are at a decent school seem to be totally jobless...hmm........
soo girlieeee
ive changed my colours.. all 'pink pink' now :oD
wanted to change the whole look. thought id be all 'techno savvy' and add a shout-box and other such 'cool' add ons (ive been beamed in from the stone age.. bloody aliens..) however i couldnt manage to put in anything. didnt know how to. they said paste the URL on the page... which page????????
tried it for a hit counter, a shout box, even for a list of fav places on the web.... i must be really stupid. .. as a last resort i changed the template... that too from the samples available on blogger.
therefore a request to anybody more tech savvy than me (might as well simply say anybody) could you help me with this? mail me (i do know to use email!.. we had it back in the stone age) at zen1502@yahoo.co.in ...
thanks! and i do hope my enthusiasm lasts till its done ;o)
d-day
was waiting for today since december. the day when i would finally be free... i could do anything i wanted without feeling guilty about not preparing for the gdpi's...
the day was boring as hell
got up in the morning (afternoon??), headed straight for the comp. played minesweeper forever... was waiting to do this for some time now.. a hundred games later, it was boring. and my hand was stiff.
thought i'd read something.. realized i didn't have anything i was interested in
bored...
went online... nothing to do.... no new mail, nothing interesting on pagalguy, one measly new crossword which i couldnt even complete.
bit irritated......
neighbor kid came over... we played with puppets for a while... painted a tree, a house and a sun (the kid was so fascinated by the concept of dipping the paintbrush in water first that when he started writing (drawing) his a,b,c's later, he kept diping the pencil in water!! ;o)
3 hrs with a 3 yr old....
went back to minesweeper. got my hands numb, frozen in the mouse holding position.
thought i'd clean up my room, eh...... watched oprah
slept.......
my best friend came over. the highlight of the day. but her exams had gotten over just yesterday so she was tired too... she fell asleep... i went back to minesweeper, massaging my hands..
thought we'd go out for something to eat. but were both lazy. so we ended up sleeping/playing minesweeper some more.
stiffness spread to my elbow....
10 pm.. thought of going for a walk now that my friend had left... came back in 20 mintes... lazy..
what happened to all that i planned for the holidays? for that matter didn't holidays start where exams end? oops... forgot my exams begin next week ;o)
gotta hit the books from tomorrow... suddenly the day seems perfect... why did it ever end?
(my stiff fingers just cried out..)
among other things
finally drafted my answers to the pre int form. cant believe its already the 16th. have my xim-b interview this evening in college. feel terribly underprepared. especially about my acads... dont seem to really remember anything.
however im far more relaxed now than i was a couple of days ago. was actually having nightmares that the world was going against me (literally.... i dreamt a piece of kerala- yes the state- broke off and floated all the way upto the bangladesh coast which left me in quite a fix coz now i wud have to study the new map of india!! ;o) (strangely enough, the next afternoon we had a minor earthquake... hmm.....)
2 more days and i really wont have much to do for some time (except die in anticipation of the results i guess... on the other hand i hope the interviews leave me with scope for antcipation :o( planning a whole lot of things for the vacations that will follow...
first..... a long awaited trip to goa!... feel ashamed to say that ive lived in mumbai practically all my life but never been to goa... not any more (i hope)
next... i gotta learn south indian cooking... have had enough of pasta and pudding and secondly feel ashamed that though being a mallu i cant even make a decent sambar
third... m gonna start playing a sport.... anything, though most probably itll be badminton (or chess :oD)
ummmm........ feels like school summer holidays all over again....
The making of an MBA?
In a very pensive mood (the result of having spent the day thinking about my significant achievements etc to fill in the form) ive been thiking a lot about how the past year has changed me and how im so much the better for it. I remember not getting into ISI last yr. I was so upset… thought the world had come to an end. That was the only thing perhaps I was looking to do and in that one day all those plans came crashing down. I was upset for months. Its almost like I cant remember anything of those 2-3 months although it was just last yr, just because I was so depressed all the time that I couldn’t do anything. The only thing I remember is my birthday (which has the distinction of being my grumpiest bday ever inspite of my dearest friends being there to cheer me up….). basically it was like I was determined not to be happy.
The around august end I started getting back on my feet. Had bought the CAT form so diverted all my depression energy into preparing for the CAT coz that’s all I thought admission into an MBA was all about. By the time it was November or I think in October itself I was almost suffering a burn out. Overpreparation. Went for a week for a religious retreat to get myself calmed down. And then at the end of it all.. cat was a disaster. But this time my anger didn’t really last that long. (see I was improving) and then with the indore call things changed again.
Today im part of a group that meets almost daily to discuss current affairs and general issues covering history, geography, science, economics, trade, commerce, industry etc. we’ve been meeting quite regularly for quite some time and I can actually feel the difference. Firstly it’s the knowledge addition and then equally importantly the positive influence people who you can look up to can have on you. its value addition at its best. And what I feel best about is the fact that we who meet are technically supposed to be competitors. We’re all looking to get into the same institute, equally passionately. But that doesn’t stop anyone from holding back something they think would help the other. Whether its feedback on writing the forms or simplifying tax laws for the absolutely ignorant (me) everyone gives their best. the attitude is completely win-win. Were seeking to maximize gains for everyone and it feels so great. In a way id say even if I don’t make it to indore (heaven forbid) if I look back at all that ive learnt, I will be more than grateful for all of it.
This entire process or what ever you may call it has changed me so much. I actually feel more responsible, more adult now. And more importantly im more aware of how much I lack and how much I should be doing to be the person I want to be coz of being with people who I respect so much.
Now if this is what I have to say about the learning and self development, preparing for my MBA, wonder what ill have to say when im doing it!
Im happy! ;o)
happy days are here again!!
I don’t know why ive been so irregular at this. Actually I do know why… nobody really reads it!! :o)
But anyway… today I bring good tidings… I made it thru SIBM! Yay! I have something in hand. I have someplace to go to! Now I know its not sooooo great or anything but its definitely better than not having anything to do and definitely makes things less scary when I go in for the next 2 interviews..
and now i gotta go prepare for them!
