when someone spoils it for you
you start off something with the best intentions and someone screws it up for you.
they look at things with their warped vision and use other people to settle their scores.
the worst kind of people in the world.
i plead innocent.
the last of my blogs.
thank you.
Ive been tagged
i finally managed to figure out what this tagging thing is all about. so with due apologies to
chandoo for the delay....
1) A Fine Balance: Rather disturbing but in a way its a rather interesting read. The story, set in Mumbai, revolves around the lives of a group of individuals all following their different dreams. the story oscillates between hope and despair which makes it rather upsetting and sometimes even unbelievable. in fact, whats most disturbing about the story is the realization that it could easily be the story of any of the millions of mumbaikars.... its that realistic
2) Aparajito: The sequel to 'Pather Panchali' Bibhutibhushan Bandhopadhyay's classic (made into a movie by Satyajit Ray) its a beautifully written story about the beauty and richness of life. exhilerating book this one.
3) The Golden Gate (novel in verse by Vikram Seth): i blogged about this book before (im not sure now) anyway, its a good read (as are most of vikram seths books!! - im a major seth fan). story based in san francisco revolving around love, relationships, life etc (dont get me wrong, its definitely not a mush book)
4) Three Men in a Boat: Jerome K Jeromes classic. fantastic writing style. extremely witty. (didnt finish the book though.. was reading it just before i left)
5) The Hobbit: JRR Tolkein (this again i couldnt finish as my mother started reading it when i was half done and the story ended there for me) whatever i read of this book i loved. dont know why i have this huge affinity towards childrens books (must be something about like minds! ;o)
there im done with my list of 5, though its not in any specific order. its my turn to tag now and i do it to
abhinav,
mathur and
saurabh
im here!!
well i came in over 2 days ago so the initial super enthusiasn has died down a bit. but im still very enthu and all ga-ga about this place!!
IIM Indore is awesome!!Its still not resplendent in natural beauty but supposedly thats because the rains have not set in properly as yet. but the very aura of the place, the ambience.. its wonderful! i suddenly feel very grown up. in fact for the first time in my life, im with people who are far older than me. im so used to being among the bigger ones that this feels weird! the day i came in the watchman actually asked me if i wasnt too young to be studying here!
i was one of the first ones to arrive and therefore for the first day i felt a bit out of place. fortunately sanika came in by evening and things were better. i took her out on a super long walk all the way to the ATM at the main gate (for which im sure shes never gonna forgive me! ;o).. sorry sanika!!) spent all of yesterday walking about the campus exploring the place and also welcoming in all the newer people to come into A block which is the girls hostel. this year there are more girls than ever before at IIM I. for what i think is the first time, the girls are occupying 2 whole floors of the A block leaving the guys with only one floor in that block (which by the way has a sealed staircase leading there!) then the B, C, D blocks are all for the boys (or should i say gentlemen PGP participants!) the hostel rooms are really nice, quite spacious with a decent amount of furniture provided by them. good facilities and so far good mess as well!
classes (prep course) began today along with Physical Fitness and Health Management class. it was crazy getting up at 6 am for one hour of exercise and that was followed by one hour of meditation/vipassana class. now that wouldnt have been so bad had i not slept at 3 am after spending most of the night writing a report on my analysis of the 'applications of murphys laws to management'!!! get that!! assignments even before the classes have actually begun! and the worst part is that we werent really sure if the notice was genuine or a hoax put up by some seniors.. so we didnt even start until late night after 1130 coz at 11 we had a meeting with the senior girls of our block.. that was really nice actually(the meeting with the senior girls not the assignment)...
anyway it turned out my report was too short (only 9 pages and she wants a minmimum of 15!) so here i am whiling away my time at the computer centre (our lappies are not here yet) hoping my report extends itself to double its size in the next 1 hr.... actually, hope it works in the next 20 minutes coz i gotta go for chai at 4! ;o) (im actually living to eat here!! barely finished lunch and here i am waiting for tea!!!)
anyway.. guess ill have to go type something more in my report (or add more spaces in between the lines!!)
more updates later!
leaving
less than 20 hours before I leave. got this queasy feeling in my tummy (or must be the junk food I ate!). wasn’t feeling too weird about leaving up until this morning. then I spoke to a friend who recreated the leaving scene (with added masala) and now im feeling….. weird.
honestly, even right now, more than feeling sad about leaving home, im excited to be going to a new place. but then I think of my family and I start feeling weird. its still not this sense of painful separation. rather more like I know that im gonna be in a weird emotional situation while saying goodbye. (I don’t think im making sense to anyone else…but what the heck! this is my blog. its for me to understand!) (and yes. ive used the word ‘weird’ way too often… weird! ;o)
packing is all almost done. just got a few bits and pieces left to put in. gotta get my medical certi tomorrow (last minute rush!) and also gotta collect the passport photos. the past few days have gone just saying bye to people. (in fact, in the past week, almost all my lunches and dinners were booked! ;o) ) thankfully got to meet most of my friends. will meet a couple more for breakfast tomorrow. train in the evening…..
last night I finally got a good nights sleep! was completely drained after a very hectic past few weeks…. feeling strong and energetic now! ready to take on the world!!!!! :oD
prep course!
When I started blogging last yr (inspired by the MBA bloggers like
Abhinav,
Chandoo,
Arvind etc) i promised myself that if i ever got into an IIM, I would write about what was going through my mind before i left for college. things havent really worked out that way (like ive mentioned, ive been extremely busy) but now i shall try and salvage some of my honour :o)
today is thursday. next monday i will be leaving for indore. for the first time in my life i'm gonna be living away from home. but to be really honest, i dont know if im feeling so bad about it. maybe because ive been preparing for it for so long, ive gotten used to the idea of staying away. i was so unhappy doing my msc the past year, that the thought of doing something i want to do is probably making up for any potential sadness! it could also be the fact that im 21 yrs old and think its high time that i became a little independent and lived alone. add to that all the excitement of shopping and packing (which i haven't quite done yet.. its still in the planning stages!) it feels more like im going for a rather long vacation. i guess whatever it is that is supposed to make me feel sad hasn't struck me as yet! :o)
i do feel bad about the fact that i wont be seeing my family and friends for quite a while. in fact i may probably not get a chance to meet my extended family for a very very long time. to be honest im scared that i will lose touch with everyone, even those i care about the most. i never thought it was possible to lose touch with people you are very close to. but with a little bit of experience im now wiser ;o) i think when someone close to you goes away and gets close to a whole new set of people, unless you are willing to deal with the subsequent insecurity and slight jealousy (applicable to me atleast) in a mature way, its pretty hard on the relationship. i really hope i dont make the same mistakes again.
i know im going to be meeting a whole new set of people. with some luck i may find some great friends. but weirdly enough, what im worried about is not what awaits me there but how successfully id be able to keep up relationships back here.
that was about the emotional preparation.
physical preparation... all that i can say about it right now is that its overwhelming!!!
two months ago i started preparing a list of things i would take with me (of course its a colour coded excel document as usual! ;o) today with little over 3 days to go, im still working on the list.
to be really honest things are not in such bad shape. thanks to my list im atleast a little bit in control. some stuff has been packed (and then unpacked as well coz after putting stuff in i realized i desperately wanted to wear it!) most stuff has been washed. lots of stuff needs to be ironed. few things still need to be bought (like the raincoat theyve asked us to get???!!). but all in all i guess things are going smoothly enough.
personally, i consider spiritual health to be as important as physical or mental health. but unfortunately, i dont know what i could do to prepare for two years of relative self sufficiency where it comes to spirituality. i do believe that prayer is a personal issue but when it comes to discussing religious philosophy and ideas (to me, one of the most enriching passtimes) its best to have someone with you coz theres only this much you can do by yourself. i mean how do you debate and argue ideas with yourself! guess ill have to work that one out.
seperation preparation.. (!).. planning to call the 'gang' from college for lunch on friday (if i do remember to invite them in the midst of all this chaos!!) those who cant make it, i guess the next 2 days will be spent calling them to say bye.
went to my homeopath today for 3 months supply of medicine. have a dentist appointment for a cleaning on friday. have to still go to the hospital to get my fitness certificate (im thinking i should perhaps get it from the campus itself). got my vaccinations done.
things do seem quite on track dont they!
phew!
have never been this busy... ever! (why does it always seem like that!)
in fact it almost hasnt even sunk in that its already june! im still hoping im in may coz thats how much time i think i need to get myself together before i leave for college. i mean theres so much stuff to be done; shopping, packing, meeting up with friends and family......
and the thing is ive done a lot of stuff already, but its all so haphazard that i think theres loads more to do
i dont even know if i need to shop anymore... think ive already overshopped!!! (can there be such a thing!)
guess after tonight (once my house is back to its regular state and only its regular inhbitants) after a good nights sleep (after 2 weeks of 4-hrs-a-night) i will start making more sense...
untill then....
alvidah! :D
