random thoughts...

prep course!

When I started blogging last yr (inspired by the MBA bloggers like Abhinav, Chandoo, Arvind etc) i promised myself that if i ever got into an IIM, I would write about what was going through my mind before i left for college. things havent really worked out that way (like ive mentioned, ive been extremely busy) but now i shall try and salvage some of my honour :o)

today is thursday. next monday i will be leaving for indore. for the first time in my life i'm gonna be living away from home. but to be really honest, i dont know if im feeling so bad about it. maybe because ive been preparing for it for so long, ive gotten used to the idea of staying away. i was so unhappy doing my msc the past year, that the thought of doing something i want to do is probably making up for any potential sadness! it could also be the fact that im 21 yrs old and think its high time that i became a little independent and lived alone. add to that all the excitement of shopping and packing (which i haven't quite done yet.. its still in the planning stages!) it feels more like im going for a rather long vacation. i guess whatever it is that is supposed to make me feel sad hasn't struck me as yet! :o)
i do feel bad about the fact that i wont be seeing my family and friends for quite a while. in fact i may probably not get a chance to meet my extended family for a very very long time. to be honest im scared that i will lose touch with everyone, even those i care about the most. i never thought it was possible to lose touch with people you are very close to. but with a little bit of experience im now wiser ;o) i think when someone close to you goes away and gets close to a whole new set of people, unless you are willing to deal with the subsequent insecurity and slight jealousy (applicable to me atleast) in a mature way, its pretty hard on the relationship. i really hope i dont make the same mistakes again.
i know im going to be meeting a whole new set of people. with some luck i may find some great friends. but weirdly enough, what im worried about is not what awaits me there but how successfully id be able to keep up relationships back here.
that was about the emotional preparation.

physical preparation... all that i can say about it right now is that its overwhelming!!!
two months ago i started preparing a list of things i would take with me (of course its a colour coded excel document as usual! ;o) today with little over 3 days to go, im still working on the list.
to be really honest things are not in such bad shape. thanks to my list im atleast a little bit in control. some stuff has been packed (and then unpacked as well coz after putting stuff in i realized i desperately wanted to wear it!) most stuff has been washed. lots of stuff needs to be ironed. few things still need to be bought (like the raincoat theyve asked us to get???!!). but all in all i guess things are going smoothly enough.
personally, i consider spiritual health to be as important as physical or mental health. but unfortunately, i dont know what i could do to prepare for two years of relative self sufficiency where it comes to spirituality. i do believe that prayer is a personal issue but when it comes to discussing religious philosophy and ideas (to me, one of the most enriching passtimes) its best to have someone with you coz theres only this much you can do by yourself. i mean how do you debate and argue ideas with yourself! guess ill have to work that one out.

seperation preparation.. (!).. planning to call the 'gang' from college for lunch on friday (if i do remember to invite them in the midst of all this chaos!!) those who cant make it, i guess the next 2 days will be spent calling them to say bye.

went to my homeopath today for 3 months supply of medicine. have a dentist appointment for a cleaning on friday. have to still go to the hospital to get my fitness certificate (im thinking i should perhaps get it from the campus itself). got my vaccinations done.
things do seem quite on track dont they!

posted by deepti @ 1:44 am