random thoughts...

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CAT 2005 is in two days and it feels like ages since i gave the CAT last year! everything thats happened in the past year seems... well... surreal!

i remember not even being sure about wanting to do an MBA.... last year, even at this time i was hell bent on giving the UPSC exams in a few years... i had bigger dreams at that time, wanted to join the IAS, work for change, or alternatively work in a social organisation, do something worthwhile......

i've left my idealistic way of thinking far behind. started off with one thing and then another and now here i am having completely forgotten who i used to be. almost like i've broken ties with the person i was, perhaps the person i really am. on rare occasions when i think back i feel terrible coz i don't know where i'm headed. one year ago i knew where i wanted to be. today, im just drifting.

then again, it may be for the better. i'm learning a lot more here. maybe its all about exploring other options, maybe its about meeting amazing people, maybe its about learning to balance a million things at the same time, maybe its learning to cope with pressure..... i don't know.... i wish i did.....

but getting back to my point.... surreal is the only word that can describe the past year... all those sim cats, and the GDPI prep, and the waiting.... ohhhh the waiting was the worst part... but then it all worked out just fine and here i am, 1/4th of an MBA already!! :) and in these five months ive learnt more than i ever have and had some of the best times of my life....

so for all those giving the CAT this year, All the Best!!

its just the beginning of whats probably gonna be the best days of your life! :)

posted by deepti @ 10:46 pm